Alright, so I won’t be winning any bloggie awards for consistency!  *grin*

Although I enjoy blogging and writing … although I enjoy the opportunity to be heard by other single moms and to hopefully make the slightest difference in someone’s life or outlook, I just don’t have a lot of time to do it properly.  I often find myself thinking, “That’s gonna blog well!”  But sadly, by the time I get near the computer, I’ve got work to do for my biz, for church, for school, for the kids, for Mom, I need to pay bills, answer e-mail, and alas, my poor little blog is neglected!

As some of you may remember, I went back to college this summer.  It hasn’t been easy.  You see when I attempted college after my divorce, it ended badly.  That was the beginning of my battle with depression and I eventually quit school – only short of failing out.  The college [its employees] has a memory like an elephant and policy did not allow for any forgiveness.  I’ve spent so much time writing appeal letters, attending board meetings, filing for emergency scholarships, filling out applications, etc. that I could puke as to write one more thing!

However, the outcome has been fantastic.  I’ve taken two classes over the summer semester and anticipate finishing with a 4.0 - how awesome is that?  Financial Aid was forced to eat crow and help me, despite their obvious lack of interest in my success.  At the outset, I found that I have already attained one degree in Applied Technical Studies.  Upon completion, approximately 2 years from now, I will have obtained two additional AS degrees in Computer Science.  [Web Development & Programming]  I have an awesome advisor who is not only a knowledgeable programmer, but a fantastic and inspiring person.  My instructors are intelligent and super people and I look forward to picking their brains and getting to know them more!  I’m learning and growing [mentally, emotionally, spiritually] with each and every chapter!  This has become not only a learning experience in design and programming, it has been an opportunity for God to show me areas where I require improvement.  [He has also been gracious and wonderful in reminding me how far I’ve come!]

You see, it is so easy to give in to the discouragement, the callous, thoughtless remarks, the belittlement and disinterest!  It is extremely easy to believe others that claim you aren’t capable of something [of anything].  It is a tool the enemy uses.  His main goal is to convince us that we are defeated – that we live in defeated circumstances.  He doesn’t want us to hear or believe the Good News that God offers.  Rather, he would like us to believe that this world and its problems are bigger than God.  They most certainly are NOT!

“No weapon that is formed against you will prosper; And every tongue that accuses you in judgment you will condemn.  This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, And their vindication is from Me,” declares the LORD.  [Isaiah 54:17]

It has been a long and hard summer so far.  I’m not comfortable challenging people of any stature, much less, boards, administrations or their decisions!  This is totally out of my comfort zone!  But I did it.  Perhaps I just had a lesson to learn.  Perhaps God is preparing me for a larger and more important confrontation!  Nonetheless, He’s preparing me and molding me into a better, stronger person.  I’d like to think that I’ve passed this particular test!  I dug my heels in and would not take “No” for an answer.  I knew that this was important to my family’s future and I knew that I could do it.  Even now, I have friends that do not support this decision.  That’s alright.  I have other, very close, friends and family that support me 200%.  Most importantly, I have God on my side – and that is seriously all that matters!  -Ever!

Sometimes, especially as a single mom, you feel very alone.  We all have our ‘moments’.  You feel like it is truly you against the world!  But I am here to tell you, after many trials, that you are NOT alone.  God is in your corner cheering you on, rooting for you, and picking up all the shattered pieces – EVERY SINGLE TIME!

7 In God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.  8 Trust in him at all times; you people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us. Selah.  [Psalm 62:7 & 8]